I was a volunteer at my local church (at the time in Phoenix) and often times when I would go back home to California, I would hear and witness sexual trauma stories within those church walls as well. I quickly learned how churches were ran and it was strictly business. I cannot say that for ALL churches, but for the most part this is my experience.

I did learn a lot within the church however, like how entangled human identities are.

I officially started my healing journey through the church, starting talk therapy in 2021. They had offered mental health via talk therapists to help people post Covid. Even though deep seeded secrets were slowly being unraveled, I knew I didn’t want to expose my future children to the dark lineage I was apart of. I knew I needed to start somewhere even if it was through the church to attempt to get answers. For years I was indoctrinated by the Christian church. And not only me but my husband (Chris who often helps me in couples and men’s ceremonies) too, which created issues for us as a married couple. Although I did not grow up in the church (despite my father’s attempts to keep his family in the church off and on since I was 14) but I was defiantly blinded by a false hope that was placed outside of me.

Eventually that year I started learning through other people’s experiences how they viewed life. These people were once Christians who left that life after sitting with psychedelics such as grandmother ayahuasca. I remembered meeting a couple with Chris down in Tucson, AZ and I was crying in fear because I knew my identity was about to be changed forever. Ayahuasca sit or not. I quickly learned right after that God is within us and that is were my provisions really are. Chris and I decided to leave the church for good the spring of 2022. It was a slow burn as we were not sure how to leave without being stonewalled, which happened anyway, but we are glad we did. This is when our healing journey really took on a new level of healing.

My first breathwork ceremony was in a virtual group setting sometime in 2022. I was learning the path of the priestess, working with my womb space and body when someone suggested trying breathwork. Things were still not yet open fully so I decided to try an online session. I instantly fell in love with breathwork! I went on a journey I was not expecting, seeing colors, hearing messages and then eventually falling asleep as that is what my body needed at the time. Since then breathwork has shown me the things I can heal, things I needed to work on and gave me a space to workout my rage, anger and grief. Breakwork has also given me a place to explore my body in a sensual way as well as develop psychic skills I didn’t know I had before. It is so profound and one of my favorite modalities to lead another through as they go through their healing journey.

In 2022 Chris and I sat with Kambo for the first time. I experienced dissociation and lost consciousness (not normal or common for a Kambo practice) and knew I had a lot more deeper inner healing work to do. This would be the first of ten sits I would do (up until 2024). Kambo has helped me to heal my physical vessel as well as my spiritual one. Teaching me that we are so interconnected with the animals and spirit realms.

Later that summer I experienced my first ever sound healing journey and fell in love with it ever since. It helped me to open up my mind, relax my nervous system and start healing in a new way. To this day I love playing my sound bowls for others as well because I know of the deep benefits it provides the physical body. Sound frequency is known to heal and move cancers out of the body and restructure the cells. We are mostly water and that water needs regular restructuring in this hectic world.